Friday, March 30, 2007
Here's what I'm seeing about myself this week: I am just entirely wrapped up in myself. This is just the way of human nature, and I believe that it's something that only by God's power we can escape from. But He still calls us to greater heights, lovingly molding us to better reflect His character and His image, and He demands that we shake off the selfishness that comes so naturally and instead view the world through His eyes. Oh, what blessing I believe will come when I get there! But it's still a long way off right now.
Let me give you a clearer example of what I'm talking about by telling you about the specific circumstance that got me thinking about this. I believe that Christians are called to love others and treat them with respect, regardless of who they are or how much you disagree with them. I also believe that a Christian wife should submit and show honor and respect to her husband regardless of whether or not she agrees with him all the time. I know the Scriptures supporting this view, and I'll argue for it all day long. However, when you look at my life, you'll see that I don't act that way, and I especially do not treat my husband with the respect he deserves. This isn't an intentional inconsistency, it's something I do without being aware of it. If I'm upset or frustrated about something, I'll speak to my husband in a rude or disrespectful tone when he is entirely undeserving of such treatment. But here's what really gets me: Even if he DID do something wrong that would make him "deserve" my anger, I would STILL have no right Scripturally to treat him rudely. My words should be gentle and loving at all times, NO MATTER WHAT! Christ lovingly forgave those who crucified Him and mocked His pain. So what right do I have to mistreat my precious, wonderful husband who is so good to me?! None at all.
The problem is, as I mentioned before, I'm just not aware of what I'm doing. I'm so wrapped up in my own frustration and feelings, that I don't even think about the way I'm acting and how it might be hurting someone around me. So besides prayer, reading the Word, and asking God to work a miracle in my character, does anybody else have any tips for me? How can I get out of my own little world and really think about others? How can I stop myself from speaking harshly to my husband (or to anyone, for that matter)? I want my character and my behavior to honor the Christ who loved me and gave Himself up for me, and I want to be the Proverbs 31 kind of wife who "brings [her husband] good and not harm all the days of her life."
Monday, March 26, 2007
Friday, March 23, 2007
This is clearly a good verse for my situation, but it's also really hard. At the times when I'm feeling anxious, I'm clearly not keeping my mind stayed on God, or else He would be keeping me in perfect peace. So how do I really trust in the Lord? There's a difference between being forced to wait because nobody's getting back to us, and choosing to trust in the Lord and wait patiently for Him. So what's the difference and how do I move from the former to the latter? Well, thankfully, God led me to a verse that very clearly illustrates how to do this. It's a familiar one, but it takes new meaning for me now that I really need it:
So God gives us step-by-step instructions on how to trust Him.
1. Recognize that you're anxious over your situation and recognize that your state of mind is not the most God-honoring.
2. Pray and ask God for the solution to your problem.
3. Don't forget the thanksgiving! Thank God for all of the blessings He's given you, and take time to remember His promises. That will put your situation in the proper perspective, and it will bring you the peace that God promises.
So I'm not saying that I'm really good at this, and I certainly wouldn't classify my current state of mind as "perfect peace." This isn't just a one-time deal either. You keep praying and praising as often as anxiety comes your way - it may be once a day, or even once an hour! But I'm thankful for God's Word that teaches me how to live for Him, and I want to honor Him by not worrying about what is to come. He knows where we will be, and He will reveal that in His own perfect timing. Blessed be the name of the Lord.
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
Thursday, March 15, 2007
Yes, these are the things I do when I'm bored at work. Welcome to my world.
Many apologies to my coworker Lindsay. I was posting this blog right at 5:00 yesterday, so I was in a hurry and I didn't finish the post! Besides wasting time on the internet when I'm bored at work, I spend many hours with my friend Lindsay, and we chat and entertain each other. On Wednesday we were given a project to use cute scrapbooking paper and some die-cut hearts and flowers to decorate giveaway bags for a Women's Conference this weekend. So as we let our creative juices flow in creating beautiful and unique bags, we regaled each other with tales from our childhoods. (You should hear Lindsay's traumatic playground story... It's a doozie. Mine is better, though, because it involves a full body cast. Thankfully it wasn't me in the cast!) I learned that as a child, Lindsay loved to cover her desk with Elmer's Glue or Rubber Cement and then have fun peeling it off. Who didn't like scraping glue off their desk as a kid? I know I did. Note: This is not as pleasant when you run into someone's GUM on the underside of the desk! Yuck!
So then Lindsay and I decided to revive this fun childhood pastime by covering various articles on her desk with rubber cement and then peeling it off once it dried.
DO NOT PUT RUBBER CEMENT ON ANY AREA OF YOUR BODY THAT HAS HAIR!!! IT'S GOING TO HURT LIKE THE DICKENS WHEN YOU PEEL IT OFF!!!!!!
Yes, I had a big red raw patch on the back of my hand after painstakingly pulling off the huge patch of rubber cement I had so idiotically put there. So that's my story of what REALLY happens around this office when the bosses are away...
Saturday, March 10, 2007
A woman juggling horses. No, really. The first act we saw was a woman with six trained white horses. It was neat to see them spinning in unison and following her instructions depending on how she flicked her whip. At one point, she had 3 of them weaving in and out of each other - looked like she was juggling them! Very cool.
An Upside-Down World. This is the act they were promoting in their commercials. This husband and wife duo were somehow suspended by their feet and juggling, drinking water, and dancing - all upside down.
Of course, the trapeze artists and tightrope walkers. I was expecting these ones, but that didn't make them less impressive. I was biting my fingernails, gasping, and covering my eyes just like everybody else. I think the part Justin was most impressed with was when 2 of the tightrope walkers got on bicycles on the tightrope with a bar connecting their shoulders. Then the lady tightrope walker crawled out to the middle of the bar and did a handstand on it. Talk about balance! Cool stuff.
Gail and her Flying Canines. This lady had 2 trained dogs and they had worked out a routine of the dogs jumping high in the air to catch Frisbees. I was just impressed at how well-trained the dogs were. They KNEW that routine and knew what was coming next. Even if they missed a Frisbee, they just went right on and caught the next one. I think that would be a fun life to be a dog trainer.
The Amazing Bulgarians. This group of about 15 people did amazing stunts using a see-saw looking thing to catapult one of them into the air to be caught or land in a certain position. At one point, they were standing on each other's shoulders, FOUR people high, and then the fifth one was catapulted up and landed on top - a stack of people FIVE high! Now that was cool.
And lastly, my favorite was the sweet elephant. They had her all covered in glitter with a silly head-thing on that she had to keep shaking out of her eyes. But she was so well-trained, just like the dogs. The trainer didn't have to give her any instructions, she knew what to do. The trainer just spent most of the time riding on her tusks and climbing around on her. I was most impressed when she got all four feet up on a little stand and then spun around while carrying the trainer in her tusks. Sweet girl. Maybe I could be an elephant trainer instead of a dog trainer... :)
So we had a great time, and I'm very thankful to my sweetie who took me out for a fun night. Happy Spring Break!
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
My sweetheart is feeling better, but still not good. His pain and swelling are all gone, but he's still just really tired. That is slowly improving, though. At least I can see a difference in the amount of energy he has. So either he really is feeling better, or he's just getting better at pushing through the exhaustion. Please keep praying for him, though! The doctor said it'll be April before he MIGHT even start feeling like himself again. He went back to the doctor today, who told him that he's pretty much guaranteed to have a relapse within the next 18 months, and he may have bouts of it for the rest of his life. Apparently, mono is like malaria - once it's in your system, it never comes out for good. So that's not good news. The good news is that I didn't get it! It's been long enough now that I'm not going to, so I must've already been immune. Praise the Lord for that!
We finally had to take some action regarding our upstairs neighbors. They started playing really loud music at 6:15 or 6:30 in the mornings! Loud enough that I could hear the song and sing along even WITH my earplugs in. (They really like Mariah Carey and Beyonce.) Justin tried going upstairs one morning and knocking on the door to ask them to turn it down, but they didn't answer. So I called the apartment management and complained, and they said they'd take care of it. I don't know what they did, but they haven't played any music in the mornings since then. Victory! I was extremely close to taking my Aunt Jayne's advice to start banging on the ceiling, but thankfully I didn't have to resort to that! So they're still incredibly loud up there during waking hours (Maybe they're learning how to Riverdance!), but at least they don't wake me up too early in the morning.
Career Changes for My Parents
Not only do my parents both have new careers - Dad in real estate and Mom in embroidery - but they've both also started working part time at WalMart! It's a brand new store in their area that's opening next week. So right now they're working on stocking all the shelves and getting the store ready to open. Once it opens, Mom will be in the Deli and Dad will be in Electronics. They're hoping to be able to coordinate their hours so they can carpool. This totally cracks me up, but I shouldn't laugh - they get a 10% employee discount off WalMart's already cheap stuff! One of these days I'll write a post with some of their crazy stories of what it's like to work at WalMart. Funny stuff.
Giving Up Sodas
Not much to say in this area, except I haven't had a Diet Coke in 3 weeks! Please PLEASE be very proud of me. I don't really even miss it all that much. Life goes on.
Bored at Work
And lastly, I'm still really bored at work, so I blog. My boss will be out again next week for Spring Break, so it's going to be really ugly around here. There's an online games website, BrainBashers, that I really enjoy going and exercising my brain. My favorites are the puzzle games and word games. Yep, I'm a nerd.